I went up at 6 this morning to see the hockey game between Sweden and Finland and I am happy that we won;=) Go Sweden!!! Tjohoo;=);=);=)
But then I was so tired and went to bed again and just woke up...nice and what I needed. Stjärnan has been nicer this night and I have had ear plugs which was really helpful.
Guess we will do some hockey in the ice hall today and then tonight sushi...yummie!
Enjoy your day!
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Hej Anette :)
ReplyDeleteAt 6 in the morning????? Geez!!!! I could understand you went back to bed...
And I'm happy to hear Sweden won hockey, great! :)
I was thinking about you this morning, glad to know that you had a good night (thanks to the earplugs)...
At least one of the two of us got a good night. First part was not bad (well, i was dreaming about Martin Fourcade and his wonderful silver medal, it really could've been worse), but on the second part i had another awful nightmare and i wake up shortly after 8 with a panic attack... And on top of this, my mother found another thing to make me feel like shit, only a few minutes after this.
I'm tired of having her made me feel like i'm worthless, every days or so... I wish sometimes i could have a mummy, to see how it feel, it's so complicated with my mother since i've had my scalping accident at the age of 3. I wonder how it is to have a mummy who really loves you..... :'(
*hugs*
Steff
Hey Anette :)
ReplyDeleteCongrats to to you all in Sweden for your victory :)
So Stjärnan was a bit nicer?
thats good :)
hope you can call teh vet soon, to help her.
by the way, ear plugs are a good idea ;)
Well then, have some hockey ice hall fun
and a happy day
Hope you feel fine^^
with Love and Respect
Chris :)
i didin't know that we have 1h time difference..'cause here it started 7am:~) i watched it too and i was so pissed of, Finland has been so good, why always when they meet with sweden they lose their balance totally.. and how far we get in this competition it's always getting more and more like boxing than hockey between finland and sweden. what is it??
ReplyDeletecan not wait the next match!
enjoy your day too:~)
-emmi
Steff: I also had some horrible nightmare tonight;=( But it is just dreams, so we can let them go now;=) About your mother: as a mother myself I cant understand how anyone cant love their children, but I guess some people are less capable of loving others. Even if you now are under the influence of your mother, there will come a day when you will live alone and then you can decide how the relationship will look like with her. I am sure she do try her best, we all do, but sometimes we cant see ourselves what we do and why. Have a nice day;=)
ReplyDelete@Anette: thanks a lot for your kind, lovely message...
ReplyDeleteYou're right, nightmares are just dreams, even if sometimes they're really awful.
I know that one day i'll be living alone, and i'm longing for it - even if it's scarry...
Sadly, i'm not sure my mother is doing her best, or if she is i wonder what would be her worse... Someone who could make me feel like i'm a piece of crap every day is not doing her best. Even my therapist is amazed by how my mother is with me, and she's not amazed in a good way.
Oh well, at least now i have some friends that are nice with me and made me feel like i worth something. I should focuse on this more often, but it's sometimes hard with depression... At since yesterday it's really not great for me (and it would be worse without your lovely message)....
Thanks again for your kindness, i'm really touched.
*HUGS*
Steff
Hej Steff ;=)
ReplyDeleteDon't be so down. I know how youre feeling. I have the same problems with my dad. But why shes doing such shit ? What has happened ? I know youre so kind and nice..
I cant understand her behave ! Anette, thanks for your hepl and kindness !
My mother was beated all time of her childhood of her mother. With besom, shoes, belts and other things.. cruel.. but she wants to be better than her mom in these things..she never beated me. okay.. not beated but in other way..
And about the tractor.. Friday I saw one and I thought: Oh my.. poor Steff. They have such big dangerous wheels !
and I want that you know, that I'm always here for you. Doesnt matter if youre feeling happy or bad.. I'm here, okay ? Day & night !
And I know, you'll find your right way and should go that way, okay ?
hugs and kisses
Laura
Anette,
ReplyDeleteI'm happy about won game too. !
And Marcus and Johan won two medals !
Gold and bronze ;=)
I'm so happy !
Sushi sounds good. Its good for our health but I never tasted it ):
Have fun at ice hall ;=)
Today I will go to city with my friend ( shes 16 years older than me but it doesnt matter ) to search some new baby clothes ( shes pregnant ;=) )and it will be a little boy ♥
and I'm looking for some gifts for you.. maybe I'll found some ;=)
Hugs*
@Laura: thanks a lot for your kind words.
ReplyDeleteAnd for me being kind and nice, i suppose it comes with the fact that i hate so much means people that i couldn't be one... I grew up in a way that was so empty of love that i feel i should have to be the opposite. I couldn't imagine not being like i am here (and trust me, you have the real me, i do not hide what i am or how i feel)...
@Anette: i honetsly don't know how it would be for me today without your 2 lovely messages. You really helped me to cope, and i'm very grateful about it. For me, only a friend could do this.... Thank you from the deep of my heart.
*hugs*
Steff
Hi Anette!
ReplyDeleteOh, Sweden - Finland? So now I dont know who I want to win. :D Okay, good job Sweden. ;-) I'm happy than your cat is feel better, but I think earplugs help you, too. 6 o'clock? I hate wake up early, but I have to get up at 7 o'clock and go out. That's horrible.
So what can I write else? Good appetite, Anette. :-)
I wish you have a good day.
Hugs. :-)
That sooo early...I need to get up at 6 every morning because of school...-.-
ReplyDeleteWell , congrats to Sweden ^^
Have a nice day
Hugs
Ena
Hey Steff, sorry to hear about all these difficulties you are facing now. It's hard to handle when someone does things that make us feel bad, and it must be harder when the person is your mother.
ReplyDeleteJust don't let your mother or any person get you down and love all the ones who love you. I'm sure there are lots of nice people who care about you.
Well, I miss a father by my side sometimes, mine never treated me bad, but lives far from me since I was 6 years old. Twelve years have passed and we are so distant from each other.
Things always change and I do hope that you are a happy person even with all these issues and will be even more happy in the future.
And hey Anette, congrats to Sweden. :)
Sweden is at 7th place in the medal ranking. Everyone wants the first place. But that's really nice.
And talking about dreams, I have been dreaming about you for three nights in a row. And it's driving me crazy because I always wake up and get angry because it was only a dream. I think I'll write all my dreams in a blog.
Warm hugs from Brazil, have a wonderful Monday.
@Fabio: thanks a lot for your kind words, i'm really touched.
ReplyDeleteI of course like to be with my friends, but they all live so far... They are mostly online, and the only one who's not lives on the other side of my country. Hopefully we have emails, snail mails and sometimes telephone (it's mostly emails thought, with my friends) to get in touch.
And yes, i could be a happy person, but sometimes life's really hard, and now it's not my time.... But i'm fighting, it's been 30 years (almost) i'm doing it and i will not stop now! :)
And sorry to hear about your father. If you could do something to keep in touch with him, do it. My father was a bastard (and i'm polite), but he at least managed to act a bit like a daddy before ruining my teens. I had no contact with him and his familly since i've 18, and he died past april of cancer. He known since many months that he was going to die and do nothing contact me. I sometimes wish he could.... Don't miss an oportunity to be in touch with your father, even if it's not a strong relationship.
*hugs*
Steff
Såg också hockeyn imorse, men precis som du så var jag väldigt trött efteråt och gick och la mig igen :P Hoppas allt är bra nere i Skåne, här i Blekinge är det på tok för mycket snö fortfarande =(
ReplyDelete/Martin
Steff : I feel sorry for you, I don't know what happened to you when you were younger but the only thing I can say is to trying to ignore her and her sad words which makes you feel like a piece of crap. I know that's hard but I had a problem like yours with my dad who just didn't care about me (no call, no news, and his only words made me feel like crap but anyway) and I noticed that ignoring someone is the worst thing for him/her...Moreover, if your mom see that you're desperate because of her she might be glad about hurting you...
ReplyDeleteSo, take care of you Steff and think about positive things like your friends or Anette :p or the next NW album :p
Anette : I'm glad Sweden won ! Good job !
I woke up at 6 too but in order to going to my school...and my back is so bad today I don't know why but it hurts me so much !
Today I found lovely things for you that I have to send you later, when I'll have all what I want !! But could I be sure that you'll have it?
About stjarnan I'm happy she feels better today, that's a really good thing. Seeing animals suffer is just horrible...
Love & Hugs !
Océane
This time I am happy You won and have Canada or Russian to play with next time. But it was so bad game from Finns, let's see if they do a bit better next time.. and then doors are open to whatever :D
ReplyDeleteWhen can we hear more about Your solostuff??
I was kinda pissed off all through the day, but I want to say that you Swedes really are good at ice hockey! :)
ReplyDelete-Dismal Wings-
Good evening Anette, i'm so happy that Sweden won! Congratulation! How is Stjärnan?
ReplyDeleteFor dinner we eat pizza that my mother makes herself. :D I love pizza, i should eat everyday, for breakfast, lunch and dinner!
Have a nice evening dear Anette! Big hugs
Vah? Nääh! Finland vann inte:(... igen...inte för att jag bryr mig heller ha ha
ReplyDelete@Océane: thank you so much for your kind words, i'm really touched.
ReplyDeleteFor the things happened in my past, let's say it's many traumas and i must be really strong to not be a real nutty case...
I try not to listen to my mother too much, but still..it's my mother - if you know what i mean.
But trust me, i think about postive things, and i have enough to busy my brain -sdaly not always perfectly) when i feel bad, music being on top of this. Saying that i'm a music lover is far from being the truth, it's the thing that keep me alive since many years. When all was so awful in my life, especially after my r@p3, all i had was music. Without it, i wouldn't be here anymore....
And last but not least... Thinking about my friends and Anette would be a bit the same for me... I don't give a damn of someone's job or name, but i will treasure someone nice, sweet, lovely, loving, and everything you want. So far Anette fits in the friends description, and when i think about her i feel all warm inside, happy and smiling (and sometimes very moved). It's the same with all my friends....
@Anette: hope you wouldn't mind if i think about you as a friend... *blush*
*hugs*
Steff
@steff : I totally agree with you, music helps so much! When things go wrong I immediatly listen to music (ghost love score most of the time <3 with Anette's voice is just wonderful) and then I feel quite better.
ReplyDeleteAnd now, this blog helped too. Anette have positive words, thoughts etc... and reading her make me feel so warm too.
Thanks again Anette, for what you do for your fans, you might think is nothing but it means so much for us <3
I wasn't even up for school at 6 girl!
ReplyDeleteEither way, go Sweden!!!
I wouldn't be able to sleep with earplugs.
I barely can fall asleep listening to
my iPod. I don't like having the things in
my ears, it's uncomfortable.
@Steff, I'm sorry that you feel this way
and that your mother feels this way,
but I understand where you're coming from.
My parents are kinda the same way.
When they say something mean I always sing.
To me, singing is my way of coping.
When I can't sing, I know I'm seriously
upset. But find something you can do after
she yells at you. Listen to what she says,
calmly reply, then go on your own and do something to get it off your mind.
I go and vent to my friends after I cool
down by singing, normally this helps,
And I don't think you're the only one who somehow sees Anette as a friend.
Anette, you really are very friendly and
motherly, and for those of us whose mothers
aren't- you're a big help with that.
For example, when I was sick. You were more
motherly than my own mother!
Thank you for that. And I hope you aren't
bothered by us looking up to you as a friend
or in a motherly way.
Hugs and love, Katie T.
Efter den här matchen är jag inte längre säker på att jag tycker Finland skulle förtjäna att vinna OS :( vad i hela var det riktigt för dålig prestation där på isen? 5 mot 3, men nehej, inte ens ordentliga målchanser. Skärpning, killar!
ReplyDeleteSteff, Enchanted Lullaby, Laura, Océane and everyone else who might have experienced something similar:
Keep on being strong. Keep on fighting, and keep believing that someday it will all be better. It might be really hard, but you are not alone: there are always people willing to help and support you. And whatever someone may tell you, you are important, sometimes in ways you wouldn't or couldn't imagine yourself. So don't give up, and if you fall - rise again.
Many good wishes and hugs!
finland has a better team :P
ReplyDeleteThanks for your words, Steff. They really mean a lot.
ReplyDeleteI talk to my friends most of the time by internet too. They are living their own life, so I don't see them often. But thanks heaven that we have internet, it makes me feel less lonely.
About my father, I was very close to him when I was a kid, but the distance made us apart and now we treat each other as a stranger sometimes. But I'll sure do my best to keep what was left of the relationship and take every opportunity to get closer to him. Thank you again for your words.
And I'm so sorry to hear about all the things that had happened to you. Maybe life has not treating you fairly. But I hope these hard times will pass and wish you all the best life can give you. Once a friend told me: "Try to smile even in the tough times. That's hard, I know. But it's really easy for you to smile in good times. You are strong enough to fight anything in life." So, smile a lot!
Lots of warm hugs from Brazil.
So I was talking to Tommi today and he told me that Marco kissed a guy on the show, and that when Tommi and Marco were walking down the road, there were these guys watching them. Tommi thinks they were staring 'cause of Marco kissing the guy on Kuorosota. ;]
ReplyDeleteThe video is on youtube, oh the jokes we made :)
@Océane: yes, music could be so helpful. And sometimes it's curious, but when i feel really bad, i listen to one of my darker thibng and i feel better after, like if all my sorrow went away with the songs...
ReplyDelete@Katie T.: i feel sorry for you... *hugs* Wihs i could sing when i heard something mean, but my poor ears wouldn't resist to the killing of the osng. The only thing i could sing (appart from Joik and Throat singing, something i still don't know how i could manage to do) is a very short song that i've learn from my great-grandmother, a traditional song from Morvan (in her native language), and it's not the kind of thing i would sing to often (basically it's about someone who pooed in her pants and say who could do when he/she wants because he/she's the owner)... Instead i'm kind of playing a song in my head (right now it's Melissa Etheridge's Don't you need).
And you're so right with what you said about Anette. When i've lost my bracelet given by my best friend (sadly still lost), my mother acted like if i've lost nothing; it was Annette who comforted me the first....
@Anette: thanks a lot for everything you do for all of us who need you. You're really a lovely and loving soul.
*hugs
Steff
Dear Anette,
ReplyDeleteI've also seen the hockey match in the morning with my dad (that's what we do every evening before going to sleep and every morning after getting up...it really is addicting) Sweden did very good job!
After I had to go to school...and monday mornings are so awful! Fortunately the weather was very nice: all the snow was gone, the sun was shining and I met a freind on the way to school and it was a lot easier to go to school with her!
Love,
Herta